united sorry

window in st.marks church where we will perform in april.

I am in the airport, flying back to Europe. I met some people in New York who opened my heart, people to whom I start to feel very close.

And I still look to become intimate with Eros himself. I see him as a giant masculine force, rising above the landscape, a bit like the giant in the painting of Goya about war. I think I cultivate this image because I am a man myself. Acknowledging being a human being and a man makes my connections with others, myself and my work more grounded.

I can deal with situations better, when I redraw myself from a personal context, and see the others and myself as a part of the human species. It seems that from that perspective i can se better how people organize and live their lives.

The more I feel connected with being part of the human race, the more I get patient and am able to listen to what happens to the others. And then I hear myself disappear in a fragmented chain of words, actions, and facial expressions to answer back.

The ecstasy of being is a state of total awareness of the body and at the same time an opportunity of letting the self disappear. Not only on stage anymore, also in daily life.

i am in a constant training to learn about performing.