united sorry

 

my deer is gone, i woke up with a kind of hang over, and really sad, there is no forest anymore in my stomach, even no green meadows, and nice sunshine. no there is a black hole in my stomach, and the deer is gone, it fell in the black hole, and is now kidnapped by evil powers i think. i dived into the black hole to look for it, and lingered in loneliness, faces of my beloved ones appeared, lost lovers, faces of the friends and family members who died, i could reach no one, in a mist of tears. i fell and fell, no floor to land, nothing, just darkness, and then i heard the sound of the deer, it was crying, i tried to comfort it with my own voice, while falling, we were singing together a song of lost hope, at last i land on tosmething incredibly soft and hairy, it was the big stomach of a bear, i found out, we had fallen in his cave,so i had a big bear deep down in my stomach, i was not surprised to see him here, i neglected him so long, while i was in love with the deer, i saw the deer next to him, bitten over all, tortured, it was bleeding out of all its wounds, i could not help crying, but in the meantime i tried to stop the bleeding, the bear looked helpless and nervous, it was a mess, i took the blleding deer in my arms, i lay myself with the deer between the arms of the bear, first we all had to calm down, i thought, i looked the deer in the eyes, it was in pain, as if it was abused in its innocence, and belief in a better world, i looked at the bear, he looked puzzled, not knowing what to do, thinking, did they fight with each other, i hade no idea, but for sure i was the one, who had to take care of both of them. i was pleased to have a taks in this utmost darkness. yes, i must face my own darkness.