the dark side of my heart
Tuesday, February 12th, 2008
The apple of Eve. The apple of Snowhite. I have eaten it, consciously, and I have no regret, i wanted to get to the other side of my heart. Yes i am at the so called wrong side of my heart now, the black side, the shadow side, the side celebrating my fears and doubts and far beyond. Suddenly the snake appeared inside me.
She lingers around my spine. She intoxicates my brain, and to be honest, i decided to love every drop of this bitter poison.
So, in these allergic times of spring coming, i sneeze a lot, I accepted my sorrow, and I redefined my sexuality. It feels that everything inside me is on the edge of exploding. Again and again.
I am myself and at the same time i can not be myself anymore. I live by embraces, moments of shared intimacy, moments of seeing myself in the eyes of the other. Why do I need the other all the time, only to get hold of my real self.
Spring has settled in me, and I even do not recognize myself anymore. A new robert. At last. A shadow one, a dark one, a flourishing one.