united sorry

I also lost my cell phone this week. This was not the first time in my life, unfortunately. I was in panic, like always. But this time, I could feel my panic as a physical reality. I could live it, express it, my eyes were like a concentrated, tormented crazy man. I even enjoyed to feel this state, I was happy that my worries did not stay inside.

This week I didn’t observe only my self…

So i discovered that there are people, who haven’t found their own energy. They are too involved by seducing the others. When they succeed in their seduction, the others automatically generate some energy as an immediate answer to their plea. The seductive people ride this energy as if it is their own. They think, they deserve it, because they provoked it. But they are as parasites. They are people who only seduce and didn’t learn to give,. Perhaps they might seem to be very powerful, but they aren’t autonomous, they live by attention. They need others to become someone.

My wish to disappear out of every social circle , based on power games, becomes more and more present.

Dear S.
You are gone out of my life, out of my mind, out my heart.

The more I disappear , the more I don’t miss you anymore.

I believe in you, but i don’t believe in you and me anymore. ( although i promised to wait…)

You are out of my system.

Yes, you are.

I can think of you without pain, or fear.

You could say, i am free ( again).