united sorry

i premiered two days ago with Frans, and tonight is our last show in brut, vienna. I am excited, fully awake, not so much patience to sleep, i sleep only four five hours now, it is always nice to discover what a piece can become, when you do it for the first time for a public. Your body get thrilled, and your mind start to investigate all the details, which still can be added, or left behind, how to condense something, more going to a certain minimal form. only in front of the eyes of a public you can sharpen the form you proposed.

In noticed that for this piece, i want to eat a lot as a preparation, i think of fish, meat, big salads, a lot of alcohol afterwards, what made me laugh, because for the piece with maria two weeks ago in new york i tried to stop eating on the days of the performances. i wanted to be as empty and open as possible. And here i have the desire to have a certain grounded belly on stage, or something, i have no idea, why this difference. It amuses me that you never know where a piece takes you, and what it demands at the end, in imagination, physical preparation, the day you perform.

both pieces deal with putting your body and mind in a strict structure, and finding ways to let the body speak in a very intimate , not pushing way. It is a lot about how emerging details in the body can provoke different emotional and mental affects in the space, without controlling them. It is for sure how two bodies relate to each other and it is clear that my friendship with maria takes me to other planes than the friendship with frans.

it would be nice to show them sometimes together, but let first look how many theaters will be interested to show them. We didn’t promote them very actively, i wanted to wait till the premiere , because i want to change the way we produce and sell the pieces nowadays, i like the idea that we can travel with performances several years,  i like the slow peace of it, to let things grow by themselves.

i get interested by the idea of gardening. What to do, let things grow. I think this will be perhaps  a new inspiration to make  work. When i come back to vienna, i want to look if there is a garden somewhere in the surroudings of the city where we can make a performance and gardening through the seasons at the same time.

but even this idea must ripe a little…