united sorry

the sun is shining, it will be a very sunny day today, everyone seems happy, i see a lot op people wearing only a t-shirt, no coat anymore, the trees are green, i feel happy, and wait in a cafe for frans to skype me. We talk, about changing dates, the work etc. and suddenly he asks if i feel well. At the moment i want to say okay, i stutter and feel a deep sadness appearing in my body and mind. it is so unexpected, i know, i can not suppress it anymore, it is there, and i have to carry it with me, also on this sunny day. and i ask myself how to let go this grief of loss, which i carry already so long deep inside me.

at the moment i am working with marty, brigitte and sabine at a lab in Tanzquartier. Porn & Tantra, is there any reason to mix them? And is there anything in it, what could inspire our work? we still have two days to find out.