sebastian morko died three years ago.
written on Tuesday, October 27th, 2009
Three years ago they found you dead. And again i feel this enormous sadness about you not being alive anymore. I find it hard to accept that you made your life so short, that you couldn’t find peace with being the person you were.
you were such a beautiful person.
i still want to hold you like we did so many times, just to express that it was and still is okay to be with you. Dead or alive, you stay in my mind as my little brother in crime. In crime to be loved. Endlessly. yes, sometimes i start to forget you, but I still love you deeply.
I just told gerog, that i was once in a club with you, there was almost no one there, but the music was great. I was dancing, you were drinking at the bar. I forgot you totally i was while moving, and then you crossed the dancefloor and kissed me on my mouth and said, i love you so much because of the way you are dancing now. There was nothing seductive or sexual in what you said, it was just that we became soulbrothers at that moment, because you recognized something in me, what i didnt know before.
Once you asked me if we would do a lot of shamistic travels together. At that time i didn’t understand that you became one of my travelcompanions through the country of the death.
sebastian, wherever you are at this moment, i wish you all my love… and send also my love to all the people who still miss you