united sorry

rehearsing again with milli in vienna, i discovered i lost a lot of strength, by being sick for so long. by declaring myself dead in this blog a few months ago, i totally changed my physical state of being. i am much more vulnerable, suffer from more pains, and i am dwelling in the dark places of my consciousness.

I ask myself, why can’t we change the world, without going into our own weaknesses, dark places. But I also know i must explore what power does to me, before i can start analysing what it does to the others, and with the world.

i think all evil is a matter of power-abuse. why do we want to control life, nature and the others.

i must re-read my whole blog, my love sickness, my desire to die, my wish to create, yes everything i wrote on this blog from the perspective of power.

So I made myself a new task again.