norway
written on Thursday, December 7th, 2006
i had to go to norway
to meet a deer
it was allready waiting there
between a tree and some stones
the see was not far away
it looked me into the eyes
it was tender, untouchable,
but steel i could feel the bouncing of its heart
bouncing for me
it opened my heart
tremendously
when will it stop, this making pictures of myself, just coming out of bed, yesterday crying, now a happy one, in dutch we say: jantje huilt, jantje lacht, little john cries, little john laughs, after so many years of swallowing my feelings and being a teacher, i am a roller coaster now, since i manifest myself as a performer, and observe all the waves of emotions, contradictions, desires etc.