no deer poem today, no bear chat today, sadness reigns.
written on Monday, December 18th, 2006
Sadness reigns in the kingdom of my heart, in a world where people die without warning and the person, who you thought it was the love of your life refuses to stay in contact. Yes, I am sad, so sad. But what does it mean, love of your life. Is that not somehow too pathetic? Did it really exist? Or was it just a fantasy, which you cannot get rid of. And that people die, is also not something surprisingly new. So change your mind Robert. Change it. And know that whenever someone or something comes close to your heart, you cannot suppress what you feel deep inside. So when you feel sad, again and again, just accept that you still carry a burden in your heart. And also remember that a lot of feelings just become dominant when you drink too much and do not sleep too well.
And still follow the pat of your heart, with the bear and the deer at your side.