united sorry

a lot of working, i love the actors, but there is not so much other living in between the rehearsals in leipzig. In four weeks, we make a piece, and we write the texts ourselves…

Without forcing it, it becomes a very personal story , about how i struggled with the death of loved ones.  And also i again raise the question if  you can sublimate life by making art…the actors are great and for the first time i feel totally at home here. the piece will re-enact a death ritual, inspired by the power presence of a woman as the Korean shaman Hiah Park and the glamour of the Fashiondesigner Marc Jacobs.

In between i am preparing a conference for the school,  learn some text for the performance saturday in Vienna and take the courage to sell the work of me and frans or find residencies. I am in a good mood, but sometimes a little anxious that i could become hyper by doing too much and lose contact with the world outside. I never cook for myself, always have breakfast, lunch and dinner in a cafe, and the whole time my mind is working.

What i miss the most, is the physical contact with another person. Of course I touch the actors whenever i can…-:) , but i am afraid that that annoys them a little, when it becomes to obvious a cry for intimacy. But i allready see that it becomes a very physical and sensual piece.

since it becomes spring time, i aks myself why did i choose to become a theatre nomad travelling to everywhere, investigating love on stage, without having any opportunity to practice it outside the theatre. it makes me laugh, this contradiction. yes robert, there is so much love and friendship around you and your other half looks at you from heaven, remember,  why still longing for new adventures…. it is good to laugh about yourself, spring definitely has arrived.

spring time in cafe lindex, the dramaturge comes to ask if the next version of the script must be printed again, everyday sometimes changes, and the question is , do we think of the trees or of our own comfort, today the answer is comfort, so there will be no misunderstandings in the rehearsal space…