united sorry

Sitting in Avignon, in a launderette, because tomorrow I am off to Paris to rehearse with Latifa and I need some clean clothes. I felt fortunate by performing in Avignon. The atmosphere is completely different than most of the festivals, I visited till now. The emphasis is on the content of the performances, and a lot of people in the street come to you and say that they liked your show. It feels that there are a lot of theatre aficionados in the public, It is fun to listen to them.

So I am totally absorbed in the theatre again, and could forget my love sickness very fast, I get experienced.

Thinking of S. I am happy I met him, and I don’t want to become cynical or disappointed about my way of loving people. Life is like this, but it doesn’t mean that answered love won’t exist for me. But you can not force it. And that is something I appreciate very much. I am not in control in this.

Like making theatre. You have a certain intuition to make something, but you never can tell if people will like it or not. In ten days Frans and I will present a new performance of six houres. I am curious. And start to prepare myself.

I think my whole trip to S. and to see him again can help me in making this new performance very strong. There is nothing to lose again.