living, loving and working in leipzig
written on Monday, March 30th, 2009
working as a director, well it brings me to unexpected places. for instance when people come to watch a run and i can’t do nothing, only witnessing how the cators are doing their best.i almost fell in the trap, that i wanted to become a very good director of monologues- i really wnat to learn this- and forgot what the initial idea of the whole project was, to make something which combines my esthetics and ideas with the craftmanship of the performers of leipzig.
do not act, i told them so often, and i think , it is strange to say to actors don’t act so much, but still i do, because i like people a lot when they are on stage, without hiding themsleves in the doing. strange that a certain way of undercooled film acting becomes more and more an authentic way of performer instead of theatre acting.
a very nice, and inspiring director saw a run saturday , and told me a lot of things, which made me think how to go on, becaus eit was clear it was still not ready, and we only have one week, and even not four days together, and then i went to the sauna, and asked myself what do you want with this piece, and when i was thinking about this, it immediately made me happy again, because i don’t want to make an immediately working piece, but i want to investigate the mentality in which we work, this so called living-loving and working - and how this mentality cna be shared or mirrored by the others. so i changed my attitude, and thought i must work more how i would with work with myself when i would make a piece, and act(!) less as a director who must know it all to convince the others…
today we did a new version, and i was allready more satisfied….
and i am really looking forward to go on and have this week premiere, life can be beautiful, the more you stay with yourself…
playing the fashionable artist, in my lonely room in leipzig