united sorry

i am working on a new piece in leipzig this week, and it must be finished within a month, and the theme of the piece really gets close to my heart, but that’s what i try always, so that’s not the point, the point isthe time pressure, and suddenly i am only thinking about the piece, nothing else, and it transforms my mind tremendously.

i am quite open, even on the edge of crying sometimes, because the piece has a lot to do with the death of dear friends. to relax i went to the circus between the morning and the evening rehearsal, it is the most important circus of the former ddr, and suddenly i found myself crying, watching the spectacle. the devotion of the people in the spotlight, the craftmanship of their profession, the live band doing seventy songs, the modest quantity of public, containing only little children and very old people. it made me so melancholic, and thinking about things which will pass away in contemporary society.

i cried, and i cried, saw this life of artists, thought of the death of sebastian, the loss of lovers. and i discovered yes i am in the perfect mood to make this piece, although we only still have three weeks i want to go for devotion and craftmanship. I want to develop the craftamanship of my way of acting, dancing and being on stage by giving it to others. i dont; cry , i am happy about this.

this is my office in leipzig, a corner in cafe lindex , at the window, close to a pulg in for the laptop, with A.  who keeps me updated with coffee and food, and she has two pet animals as permanent clients.